Stoooorage.

My wedding dress looks like a big ghost in the storage unit. Poor dress - all lonely and sad.

my save the dates!!!! :)

i worked very hard on these babies. they're postcards!
:)
yay!

EDIT : ordered them from vistaprint for literally 22 cents a piece and they're AMAZING.

Sick

I'm seriosly about to scream - I'm one sick puppy. My head hurts...well, my sinuses.. I cannot breathe...etc...anyways here's some picturesss.

Bridesmaid cards!!! Yayayayayy Ginger, Lindsey, Allison, Stacy, and Jana!




Flip burger with E!


Amelia!


And my rang :)



Goodnight - sick :(
Mal

iPhone !

I got an app for my phone :) so I'll blog blog blog more :)

the engagement photoz

our engagement & how it went down, c/o mrs kelly cummings of spindle photography :)






eric actually surprised me at work.
i still cannot believe how wonderful it was :)
HAPPY US!!!!!!

rang on my leftyyy

i got engaged.
and its still so unreal.
video & pictures soon to follow.


just know i feel like the luckiest girl on the face of this world.
fiancee
fiancee
fianceeeeee

im still not used to it.

happy happy

we had thanksgiving & it was a ball.
we had WAY too much food & laughed a lot.

im proud of myself.

im now ready for christmas.
im hosting 2 parties.
HOORAY!
girls gift exchage & my costume party.

we cannot get a tree until this friday - pray that all the huge ones arent gone.
we have 18 ft ceiling in our loft & i want to make the most of it.

that means new ornaments!! WOOOHOOO!
im so happy to have someone like eric to share the holidays with - he enjoys them just as much as i do :)

i cannot wait to tear into some decorating.

:D

You know, as a woman I am entirely too insecure.
Most know me as the 'comic relief' or jokester. Which I don't mind being, sometimes.

Lately I've been trying to get back into the groove of loving people & having them love me in return. Engaging in friendships that are risky or new. Investing & loving my already precious friends. Being someone more than the resident sarcastic commentator.

Putting myself out there, really.

I feel bizarre, like a middle schooler.
Wondering if the popular girls will like me.

I'm trying to grow out of this fear of serious rejection.
Trying is the key word here.

But I find it hard. Sometimes I wonder if I'm interesting enough, or fun enough, or rich enough, or...oh hell I don't know...just enough.

I have friends that forget to invite me over. I have friends who I make the effort. I have friends who are simply shitty friends. But lately, I've been listening to people around me, and for once, I really get it.

No one has idyllic friendships. Everyone loves ya. Everyone calls ya.
We all are stuck thinking we aren't enough to people sometimes.

I wonder if other women struggle with family befriending those we think they shouldn't.
I wonder if other women catch friends leaving you out of an invite....

Yes, they do.
I'm not special in that respect.

What makes me special is the way I laugh louder than any noise in a room at anytime.
I am special for the way I pretend to dance, always.
I am special for loving my deceased mother just the same as I did when she was here, maybe more.
I am special for always calling people, even if sometimes it's too much.
I am special for crying so easily.
People know these things...I've got to know them as well.

Anyways - thats my sap for the evening.
Here are some pictures.

is this real?

dear blank :
you make me sad & sick & angry & furious.
you make me want to yell and sceam and kick something.
you already had your turn.
go away.
love blank.

the end.
my day was good until now.
whoopty freakin doo.

okay.

Today has been a day that I wouldn't have minded sleeping through.

I woke up to discover something devastating.
Amelia peed in her crate...twice. AND ON THE FLOOR.
A can of mousse exploded in the bathroom.
And now my head hurts, my body aches, and my throat feels like an ant hill has set itself down in there.
Plus, my precious Eric is at work. I wish he were here to snuggle.

Anyways, I'm trying to be sane.

So I'll talk about what we found yesterday!
OUR ROOF!
It was so beautiful and quiet. I love being up so high above all the noise. I love my city & I love our loft.

And I love what I've been finding online for our new orleans wedding.
Honeymoon is so hard to figure out - where to go??!???!?! AHHHH
First step is the engagement...hahaha. :)

Happy week.
Love yallz

lofty lofty

we moved we moved!

as we speak im laying in the bed with new sheets and a fancy curtain to hide us from the evil sun.
and a handsome young man. heh heh heh.

im glad its holiday time.
im ready for casserole & dessert.

but im more ready for simply being around those peoples i love.

this is quick and probs pointless, but we havent had internet & i felt like i HAD to update youz.

:)

sniffle sniffle

im still sick.
awesome.

GROSS ME OUT.

im so tired of snot, i could scream.
im also tired of thermometer reading over 101.

coughing, sneezing.

i am so sick.

i cannot breathe out of my nose.
snot is dripping down my throat.
and a fever of 101...

today is the pits.

lets hope the doctor can fix me up.

the couch saga & some good friendlies.

okay - so our couches are officially gone.

it's really happening.

YAY!

loft living, here we come!!!

www.jemisonflats.com

so far ive sold :
mirror, lamp, record player, couches, tv, baby gates, and a shelf.

we have made over 500!
yahoo!

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i have been able to hang out a lot lately. i feel slightly spoiled.
being around friends whom i don't see often is a serious blessing. i feel like it awakens a part of your heart that hasn't been tampered with in a while & makes you feel alive. last night i hung out with stacy. her & her son jude are the most precious two people. stacy has this way of making you feel like shes your sister, and youve known each other for years...so lets not explain whats been going on in our lives - lets just hang out and automatically understand & feel what the other person (me) is going through.

shes a special mommy. and her son is one of the most animated things under the age of 1 that ive ever met.

ginger came later. the girl deserves her own book.
shes amazing & funny & our conversations roll off like butter.
she talks, i listen, i talk, she listens.
we laugh so hard we cry.
we buy maching medicines.
we both love beer.
she is good good.

i met her friend adam. nice person. totally and completely wonderfully nice.
i love nice people.

and my eric came.
hes been working a second job in addition to his 8-5 job.
:(

8-5 and then 530 or 6 - 9 or 11
i just miss him.
but sweet boy, hes saving for our life together.
focused on taking care of me. and us.

i love the feeling of knowing i have met my match.
he is my world and my best friend.

geez. lucky lucky.

i wish i could cut people out of my life for good sometimes.
not that they wont be alive...
just that our lives wont intertwine anymore.
people and memories sometimes suck.

gross.

on another note - last night at rouge i had three beers. ok? ok.
i come home and decide at 11pm its a perfect time to BATHE my dog.
UGH. most frustrating thing ive ever done.
but when youre three beers in i suppose anything seems like a good idea.

one wet floor and two shat on towels later & i believe ive learned my lesson.

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im waiting for e to get home to watch glee.
HURRY HURRY!
QUIT STOCKING WINE & COME SNUGGLE ME...

(btw - eric INSISTS that we move the bed into the living room. since we dont have couches anymore. i feel lazier just thinking about it)

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speaking of no couches :
ideas ideas ideas

too much !

our house is driving me nuts. we have no heat.

we are planning to move nov. 1

yay!

its been cold.
and we've built fires.
and i've loved it.
and i wore boots too.

proof!



and some beautiful flowers at work...



are you enjoying the weather??
brrrr.

introducing......mallory.

hello small e-world. atleast im hoping you're small.

i havent written anything worthwhile in such a long time.
and i supposed ive forgotten how lovely it feels to simply write...for no one.

my life as of late is wonderful. its a mess, but a good mess, me likey.

birmingham has shrunk for me growing p - it started out as this vast space, full of person after person - adventure after adventure. but as ive grown up - the world has shrunk. everyone knows everyone...we all could tell everyones life story.

and i love it.
adulthood looks promising.

ive got the most amazing booboy.
eric.
you know him im sure.
he hugs me like its the last time, everytime.
he listens to my crap...and i talk about a lot of crap.
he brings me water to bed.
rubbys my feet.
makes me laugh so hard i cry and squeal.
etc.
he simply loves me.
and we 'gon get married.
just you wait !!!

we have a puppy, amelia.
shes insane & i think she may have it out for us. (for leaving her in the crate, of course)

i have an amazing job. hair-doing.
highlights, low lights, blow dry, curling iron, up-do, head-scrub, talk my head off, laugh til i cry...etc
i love it.

and although i lost my very besty friend - mom. in march.
i still am a happy chicken.
my family is wonderful. as blended and nuts as it is.

my friends are special and unique.
and beautiful and loving and accepting.
ive got a major mash-up of all varieties.
and i love it.

life is looking good blog-ville.

pictures?
sure!